Living In A Participatory Universe - The Early Years
I grew up in a family environment where everything was difficult and nothing ever seemed to change. Things were as they were and any request to my parents to do something differently was stonewalled.
Floundering In A Rigid, Fixed, Unyielding Universe
The result of these early experiences was that as I entered early adulthood my view of life and the universe was that it was fixed, unchanging and rigid. Any attempt at doing something different was extremely difficult and inevitably met with resistance.
How To Do Life?
As a result of these early experiences I had a deep interest in the dynamics and mechanics of "what makes organisations tick" together with the individual and personal dynamics of the practicalities of "how to change your life" that affect many of us at some point in our lives.
A Level Of Success And A Functional Working Model
I immersed myself in the study of psychology, self-help and personal development. I practised positive thinking, visualisation, affirmations; I also embraced NLP and other techniques of self-improvement. I worked my way through various religious and spiritual practices. I did a lot of work on myself to deal with the baggage of my past.
As a result of all this I mastered certain skills in life and in business, and I became fairly successful and what I used to describe as a fully functional human being. At that time I felt that with the mastering of these various skills I had at last got a working model of how to do life.
The Realisation That External Change And Internal Change Are Connected
For many years I felt that my quest to understand organisational change and personal change were two quite separate fields and lines of enquiry. I eventually came to the realisation that they are not and that external change in the organisational structures of life and internal change in my experience of life are inter-connected.
As a result of extensive meditation and mindfulness practice I came to realise that in some indiscernible way everything is inter-connected, and that we are all inter-connected. I do not simply mean this as an idea or a concept but it became a felt and experienced reality.
I Took The Red Pill And Went Down The Rabbit Hole
Truth is, I really have been down the rabbit hole with a lot of this over many, many years in my quest to understand the dynamics of all this. It's the result of a personal journey I embarked on some years ago. Think of "The Matrix" for a visual analogy.
Without fully realising what I was getting into, I took and swallowed the red pill.
Curved Balls And Shattered Certainties
I should say at this point that the driver for this quest has been that every time I have thought that I have mastered it and got the hang of it all, life throws me a series of curved balls that shattered the delusions that were my certainties.
I rapidly discovered two things:
If You Take "Life" Seriously It Engages And Starts To Take You Seriously
Firstly, what I didn’t know at the beginning of all this is that when we start to take Life seriously - or The Energy Of Life as I refer to it, it takes us seriously, and that changes everything.
The Rules Of The Game Change
In simple terms it quite literally reverses the rules of the game. All things that used to work no longer work. The old skills become irrelevant. The model has cracked and old certainties fail.
The key thing I very rapidly experienced was that there was an interaction taking place between my inner dialogue and accompanying energy states and The Energy Of Life.
The interaction was a combination of verbal initiation (or prayer) on my side, and an intuitive reception of response, supported by external changes of circumstances, and my perception and attitude towards them.
This was rarely an immediate cause and effect but rather analogous to a dance, and often a very slow dance at that!
I came to experience this interaction/dance as a relationship which developed and deepened over time and which as with all relationships involved a degree of trial and error, learning and development.
An excellent insight into what happens when you “take the red pill and journey down the rabbit hole" is shared by Steve Pavlina in a series of 3 videos.
This very largely mirrors my own experiences and he articulates this far better than I can. There is a lot of material here and I really do recommend that you give it some quality time. I have created key point summary notes to accompany each video, they are in PDF format and you can view the videos and download the notes here.
But we have to be clear that the science does not prove that the law of attractions works or that we have any level of control over the circumstances of our lives. But this does not rule out the enormous scope for personal exploration.
The starting position of greatest integrity is the one that recognises that the true nature of reality is unprovable. We will never know the truth - so if you can accept this, then approach your journey as a noetic explorer in an experimental frame of mind and do as I have done: